Pre-Grad Blues...


Are you feeling it?!


I'm feeling it. Like totally. I know it's still early but I can feel this sickening feeling of the working world beckoning me to the 9 to 5 life. I'm having premature nightmares of

1. Squeezing with the army of working people in the morning train (Monday to Friday)
2. Waking up to only feel like applying for MC
3. Sit in traffic on the way home
4. The phrase of TGIF being a constant thanksgiving one
5. Not being able to travel during summer as and when I want to
6. WEARING FORMAL EVERY WEEKDAY
7. "Schmoozing" with the big shots


I want to remain as a student. Living the carefree days of msning, online shopping with my girlfriends/classmates during classes, stoning (and the occasional note taking in class), bitching during project meetings and going for late night suppers without worrying about not reporting to work on time the next morning.

It's not like I do not want to be successful in my life, not like I do not want to have a successful career. I do not know how to put it in words. It's the responsibility part, the jaded-ness in working people, the 'I have to think countless times before doing something' work-nurtured character. I do not want to be that person.

Growing up. It's funny and ironic really, come to think of it. I remembered when I was a little girl in primary school, all I wanted was for time to hurry so that I can grow up, wear high heels, put on lipstick and do the adult stuff. But when I'm here at this point in life, I look back and still see this little girl in me and she really doesn't want to grow up anymore.

And being in college is like experiencing the best of both worlds really, being carefree and getting a taste of being responsible at the same time. But it's ending all too soon.

Call me childish and naive, but I just can't help feeling a little vulnerable at times.