Monday 30 April 2007

The Power of Friendster


I was so bored that I went through every network I had in my Friendster account. And after clicking on links after links, I found one particular account which I really didn't expect to find.


Bok Sheng's account! HAHAHA. Faints!


I was like, you must be kidding me.

He didn't change one bit, I tell you. Still the same old boyish look. Well, I'm so over him already. But looking back, sometimes, I just wonder why we fall in love (was it even love, then?) so easily. Why do we get butterflies in our stomachs so easily? You know, that warm tingley feeling everytime you see someone you fancy.

If I were to see him in the flesh once again, will I still get the same feeling. Perhaps yes, perhaps no.

Young love is such a silly thing.

Sunday 29 April 2007

Simplicity


I'm happy these days. Simple happiness comes from simple day to day things like buying myself a new Hillsong cd, munching on a choc chip cookie with my glass of milk and lying on my bed deep in ponder.

Sometimes, it's good to keep things simple.

Let's see, We have the pursuit of happiness, the pursuit of ambition, the pursuit of luxury.

How about another one? The pursuit of uncluttered faith. That's my pursuit for now.

"Break free, get up and dance in His love"

Read Hebrews 11 today. And I saw this verse,

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see"

That's what God means by having uncluttered faith.

It's those times when we do not see the outcome of an event, but still work towards it, knowing for sure that it'll work out for good. Somehow or other.

Thursday 26 April 2007

Canto. canto. and more canto


Met up with Julez, Li Ping and Qihan for lunch and a wee bit of talk cock session this afternoon. And we had such an awesome time talking, eating and of course teaching Qihan and I, some common cantonese phrases. Stuff like, "Wheres the toilet", ''I'm so-and-so" and most importantly, "How much is it? for shopping purposes. Heh, It was hilarious actually learning how to speak canto. We don't sound convincing enough. Especially Qihan. Oh goodness, we had a good time just laughing at his bad pronunication. I know, kinda mean of us, but we're all good pals so well, no hard feelings ya...

We ate alot ALOT. One for one at Spaghetties only for UOB card users. Naturally, we ate the more expensive stuff. Typical singaporeans. It was off to Changing Appetities for some mudpies for desserts. They were a-okay actually, not that fantastic as we expected them to be. It was really nice sitting and chatting. Feels good to while away the time just doing stress-less stuff.

Seriously, boring times do call for boring measures. Being total slackers with loads of time to kill, Qihan and I were itching to play some MJ. I called whoever whom I think are the most free of late. Sadly, none can make it. So we're a pathetic 2 players short team. Haha. To kill time again, off we went to shop for formal shirts and ties for Qihan. Li ping and I were giving him lotsa suggestions on colour coordination. That soon to be rich fella wanted to buy a $3,500 Baume & Mercier watch! Well, thats what a big fat paycheck can do to your future expenses.


Anyhow, dinner was equally nice. It was overall a damn slack day. The way I like spending my time. Just slacking away, knowing there's no to do list waiting for me at home.

The only thing pulling me back from wanting to get out of Singapore is the company of all my loved ones. They really mean so much to me.

Julez and Liping, please try to go over to Hk okies. Qiuxin, Qihan and I would love your company! We can bunk over like refugees at Qihan's free lodging. Haha. We are so cheapskate. In order to shop and eat more, we don't mind leeching.

Girlies, you too! The more, the merrier!

Wednesday 25 April 2007

Mumtazz


The latest online clubbing portal, Check it out here.

Photo taken on the 18th April, Wednesday night:

http://www.mumtazz.com/singapore/disppic.php?ptid=702&picid=23602&f=23597
SHIT HAPPENS,


You just have to deal with it.


Shitty issue no 1:

Qiu Xin, Lay Yee and I are unable to go to HK until the end of our internship which ends on 3rd august. Damn crappy. It was a major blunder on our part. We applied for the wrong visa. Instead of applying for the multiple entry visa, we applied for the single entry one which only allow us to enter China once from Singapore. So if we were to go to HK and back to Shenzhen almost every fortnight, the single entry visa will be rendered void.

Oh goodness. I'm kinda pissed at myself. Cause I had the common sense to actually want to apply for multiple entry in the first place(which really makes more sense than applying for the single entry visa). Ricky at OCS said its fine to apply for single entry. He totally misunderstood our question. We took his word for it, and went ahead to apply for the single instead. Well, 2 alternatives, apply for another visa again. I don't mind paying more. But Qiuxin and Lay Yee are kinda reluctant.

Anyway, deal with it. I'm sure there are other stuff we can do in Shenzhen and the nearby places in Guangzhou. I'll ask Adrian who went to apply for the multiple visa again, to buy back KK donuts from HK for me then. Got that covered.

Shitty issue no 2:

Grades are out. And I'm not as glad as I wanted to be when I saw my grades. My Cross cultural mod grade was a major GPA killer. And to think, it was one of the most interesting mods I have ever taken so far. Sheesh.

You know what, now I'm seriously thinking if second majoring in OBHR is indeed a wise choice. HR profs are known NOT to give As to students. The most is a B+. They justified this fact by telling us they are HR practitioners so they are more stringent when it comes to correcting the policies and answers we give during our exams. Great......

Ok, grades aren't everything.

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Alrights, enough of wallowing in self-pity. On to other cheerier stuff.

I'm gonna try my hand at cooking stir-fried broccoli and beef this saturday during the once in 3 months cooking party at my cell group. Yay! Looking forward to it tonnes. Been awhile since we had cooking sessions.

I thought I could get away with not cooking anything and just eat. But, not anymore. Gone are the days where I only ever rely on my grandma to make sambal chilli to bring for such cooking sessions. Haha, yes, I only contributed sambal chilli and some desserts which are all bought. Sad or rather embarrassing to say, all the food contributions are not entirely from my own effort.

So, this time round, it's time for me to make some meaningful contributions. I opted for stir-fried stuff. Should be pretty easy right, just throw in everything and stir fry. Plus, I got a simple recipe to follow to =) And I'm gonna learn how to make mango sago from the only guy who knows how to cook in my cell group.

Hopefully, all things will work out this saturday. Don't wanna ruin dinner for my church pals with my stir-fried dish. Lol. My first time in cooking chinese dishes.

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Mental checklist of things to do before leaving for China;

1. Buy hair cream + hair products
2. Buy the smallest universal plug from Planet Traveller (the ones I have are too chunky)
3. More work clothes
4. Get brows shaped
5. Meet up with friends and girlfriends for shopping & coffee
6. Watch Spidey 3
7. Ice-cream tour on May 2 @ Island Creamery & Daily Scoop

8. START PACKING!

There, Things to do in 2 weeks' time.

Tuesday 24 April 2007

2 years, Baby!

23rd April 2007

Time flies. We are 2 years old. We decided to spend it at Chijmes. Looking back, those times we spent together were indeed special. Every single piece of memory.



Cabbing over - we're plain lazy folks. Me especially.



Hog's Breath Cafe @ Chijmes



The Prime Rib Steak (it was damn succulent and good)




Almost candid shot of me chomping away


This, is a must try, the primary purpose of going to Hog's Breath. The apple crumble dessert is to die for.REALLY. Damn sinful but deliciously good.











=)


One of the nicest architecture we can find in Singapore



School is just behind me....Bleah.


That's him, playing around as always. ;)



I love Chijmes for its rustic charm. A little teeny piece of Europe in Singapore.

Trying to act carnivorous in front of the pub/restaurant, 'Carnivore'. -rolls eyes- Haha.



Us, 2 years ago. Thankfully, that long hair of his is a thing of the past!


The first photo that led to countless photos after. It was and still is a wonderful and lovely journey.



He's still the guy who can make me laugh out loud unabashedly, put up with my numerous mood swings, and let me poke fun at him without him getting angry. Yes, even with his incessant nagging, he's still adorable lah.

Saturday 21 April 2007

Clinic-ed

18th April 2007


The long awaited party trip with the babes from Pricing project team.

Decided to make our way to Clinic for chill out and drinks. It was my first visit to the interior of Clinic.

Our main motive was to take advantage of the free entry and 5 free drinks. The place was normal. Thankfully, we got nice cushy seats to plant our butts on (since we aren't in the mood for some trance dancing).

Well, the whole clinical concept was refreshing though. The idea of serving cocktails and drinks through the drips and syringes. I find the whole thing about waitresses decked out in nurse uniforms kinda amusing and rather kinky looking.

Some photo taking along the river. Haha. Steph was the OL (Office Lady) for the night. She looks so office lady-like with her long flowery skirt. Anyway, I decided to opt for slacks. Aren't that bothered to dress up much these days.



Oh, one thing I totally can't stand is Clinic's toilet. I went in, and the first thought that came to was, "Did I just step into a morgue?!'' Haha, it was so eerily cold and metal like. Definitely not those plush and huge restrooms to linger in either to take pictures or to powder our noses. Oh goodness, it pales in comparison to MoS's loo.


But nevertheless, Janice and I still took pictures. Yes, in the horribly eerie toilet. One thing for sure, those who came up with the whole clinical concept of the place, is too obsessed with having a consistent image, to the extent of designing a toilet that adheres to the overall concept. Sheesh, talk about being overly meticulous.



Steph and I


Julez and Janice
Lovely girls.
We got bored and started taking lame-ass photos.
Whats with the obsession with the electro lighted wall?




Oh well, Clinic got kinda too squishy and boring after a while. And we club hopped to OBar.


As always, free flow on wednesday.


The company was more than wonderful. A good way to wrap up a term's worth of hard work and project meetings. 4 is always a good number for outings. Good for cabbing, good for chilling out and lastly, good for an upcoming MJ session. Wooo.





Wednesday 18 April 2007

Of MSU contestants & short hair.

I was on the phone with Jax while reading through a copy of the latest 8 Days. Having filled each other in on the latest in our lives and such stuff, we decided to rate the contestants. Haha our top 3 choices:

1) Jessica Tan
2) Joey -something-
3) Peggy Chang

The most pleasant looking of the lot and their answers for Q and A were not bad. Well, Jax was going on and on about how 'chio' Joey is. Yeah, I would say she's pretty hot. Funnily, we had the most enjoyable conversation in quite awhile. The past 2 weeks had been really straining what with exams, projects and all the school shite both of us had to put up with.

Ironic huh, nice to talk about other girls, in this case, pretty MSU contestants. HAH. Well. we're quite a quirky couple at times.

Seriously, people should give those girls a break. Most articles I came across on the MSU girls have remarks that are dripping with unnecessary sarcasm. At least give them some credit for their guts to pour their aspirations and dreams out to be scrutized under the public's eye.

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and What's up with guys prefering girls with long flowy silky hair!

I do not get it.

"Shortest hair ever since Secondary school" was my msn nick. Jax's immediate response was what I predicted. =\

Sheesh.

Nah, don't imagine me with a drastic change of hairstyle. I still look my normal self.
Just a test of responses.

Tuesday 17 April 2007

My CBOX is so prim and proper.

It hates vulgarities! HAHA.


No kidding, I'm serious. Try typing curse words or words like fuck and bitch in the cbox tagboard. Haha really really, it self censors the curse words.

Thanks youie for discovering this quirky feature.

Her original tag: "oh my god u lucky bitch! ur exams are over!! have fun gal =D

The censored version after CBOX processed it: "oh my god u lucky ****! ur exams are over!! have fun gal =D

LOL!. I went to type in Fuck, and it really censored it. Haha for fun. Oh okay, oh gosh, this post contained the most number of swear words among the 200 over posts I've written. Urps.


Urms I think I sound very mountain turtle.

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Oh by the way, Supercuts folks are real nice service people. They heard my stomach growl during my hair treatment, and they offered to buy me my dinner.

Sheesh, my stomach growls alot these days. Been eating tonnes lately...=)

Monday 16 April 2007

May: The Summer Blockbusters Season.

I'm gonna miss this,


and this,



Unless, I watch them in China/HK. Most prolly, will have to catch them a few weeks behind. =\


I absolutely CANNOT miss Pirates on the big screen...

Saturday 14 April 2007

The Real Deal!


Whoopee! I've found it. there is indeed Krispy Kreme in HongKong! Didn't get to try it the last time in CAN/USA. So close now, one more month.


here I come, Hongkong Times Square for lovely donuts. Donuts from Donuts Fact, no way! Heh... I'm crazy, I know.


You must have thought I'm talking about shopping right.


haha, I'm so gonna get fat.



Hm, should I go Shanghai after my internship? Hopefully, I'll make it back in time for start of school.

Friday 13 April 2007

YIPPEE!

Exams are officially over!

I'm free to do whatever I feel like doing. No more feeling bad for watching endless drama serials and reading other people's blogs. I can nuah around for all I care.

With my pillows and Lays as my companions, gonna watch whatever I find worthwhile to watch on cable.

It is so LIBERATING.

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Well, I had my pre-departure internship talk at Office of Career Services this evening. And to my surprise, over 100 students are China-bound for our internship. The biggest 'gang' is off to beijing. Shanghai is pretty popular too. Darn, missed my chances. I contemplated for far too long, that is why I'm left with Shenzhen, which is pretty alright actually.

It was pretty amusing, the briefing. We were told to give face to our superiors and not question them too much. Do not be like usual SMU students who never ever fail to question profs and be quick to disagree. That's what was advised. Chinese managers do not like being questioned and students ought to note the huge power distance in China. Sheesh, it's cross cultural management in practice. The whole issue of dealing with hierarchy in the workplaces. It was heartening to see quite a number of familiar faces and we all have plans to head to HK for the summer sale of 2007! Yay! New people to meet and new places to go. Lovely.

Amongst the many companies being listed, there are of cause the banks. Huge names like Merrill Lynch, Goldman Sachs and HSBC. And you know, how much the interns there are being paid?

Its a whopping 5000 USD! Per month. Equivalent 7,500 SGD

That is what my friend who's helping me bring my shopping stuff is earning per month. 2 months after, he'll be 10,000 USD richer. To top it off, free lodging and SQ airfare.

A mere intern. And a jaw dropping paycheck. No wonder, all the finance students are studying finance and yearning for a job at a bank.

I pondered about this on the way home. And I wondered, what am I doing in Marketing and HR.
I can study finance if I want. But I realised I really do not want to wake up early every morning, drag myself to work and crunch numbers all day long. That's how its gonna be like the first few years as the small fry in the company. Yes, the money is good. But I do not want to be a slave to money. It's just not worth it. I mean, good for you, if you love finance, love the numbers and you get a big fat paycheck along with it. I am not against people who do finance. It's just that, I feel it's really pointless to do something without the passion to do it well.

Thursday 12 April 2007

Foreseeable Problem Solved!


I mentioned in my previous post about the problem I see myself getting into when I'm on my way back home from Shenzhen. That is, I most likely would not be able to keep to the 15 kg weight limit since firstly, I'm taking budget (sigh, since my dad wants me to have company on the way back) and secondly, shopping. Haha, so I was looking for some help.

And I found it. Ok, I have this pretty good friend who is going for an internship at HSBC, Hongkong. And, to my horror, HSBC is flying him on SIA to Hongkong (sponsored return ticket with free accomodation!!!). Fine, I know, it's HSBC. Well anyway, his baggage limit is 25 kg! (Hmmmmm..)

Its so unfair! He gets paid, airfare and accomodation all provided. All first class treatment. Most likely, his remuneration will be more than 1 grand. Definitely. Meantime, I get like only free accomodation and a measly less than 500 paycheck.

Oh wells, It's really pointless for me to wallow further in self-pity. Haha. So.. decided to think on the bright side by..

using his benefits to my advantage; asking him to bring back some of my stuff for me in his baggage. And he so kindly agreed to help me out. Yay-ness! More shopping, less worrying.

I think I'm quite bad, cause he asked what if the baggage goes over the weight limit. And I said, 'No worries, SIA is pretty lax on such stuff. Most likely, they'll close one eye over the matter as long as your baggage do not outrageously exceed the 25kg limit."

sheesh, I'm so evil and sneakish.
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I'm having the exam blues. I know, it's the last lap already. Last paper, and here I am, complaining. Ha, I lack the stamina sometimes, so thankfully, its a sprint of an exam not a marathon. Else, I'm gonna need supernatural strength & energy.

I do think open book exams are more of a curse than a blessing. Cause it gives you this wrong perception it's gonna be a piece of cake, a walk in the park. But it's so wrong. One thing, it drains outta you, the motivation to study and remember things I ought to put in more effort to remember. But no, I keep telling myself, its an open book anyway, why bother to remember so much, just refer rightttt. Wrong, there's seriously not much time to refer during the exam when I need to plan, think and then write.

At this juncture, I do hope time flies even faster, cause I can't wait to be done with the paper and get straight to the holidays.

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Oh lastly, I think I really need to play more Mahjong with my granny. I just got off the phone with her and she kinda dont remember my chinese name! Goodness, Is it the start of dementia?!
Mahjong will be good to help stimulate brain activity. And prayers too.

Tuesday 10 April 2007

California Pizza Kitchen.


The pizza there is awesome! Plenty of choices to choose from. I think there're over 20 odd pizza flavour to choose from.
Haha, Monster Eater







Playing around with the tobasco sauce.
Sometimes, I do think my boyfriend looks like a teddy bear... It's that boyish look. I reckon he must have been a super cheeky & mischievous boy when he was young.

Lol. Me, sans make-up while he's faking to be asleep and snoring.
Im being fickle minded again. Decided to use blogger again. Wordpress despite its other features is seriously too user-unfriendly. What a pure waste of my time.
Feel so silly. Seems to tell me, at times, greener pastures might look greener but at the end of the day, the ground I'm standing on still suits me best. No underlying meaning, just pondering.

Monday 9 April 2007

mmi

Post Exams Checklist

Never too late to make a small mental checklist of things to do after exams.


No idea why, but I have this feeling that as the years in uni fly past, the after exam plans kinda mellow significantly. Gone are the plans to go diving, party the wee hours away. Few of that now. Well, there's good ol shopping to fall back on. =)

Back to my simple checklist:

1) Salon (time to pay more attention to my hair. (Deciding if I should do something drastic to it, like have a short bob (!), curl/wave it (?) or just stick to status quo)

After 2004's bad hair year, I should try to steer clear of curling my hair. It was a nightmare to begin with. Well, shan't bring back days of messy and uncomb-able hair.

2) Mani+Pedi at Good Earth

3) Shop & Stock up on facial stuff for 3 months overseas internship

4) KTV and swimming at May's place

5) Wait for Jax to finish his exams, which ends on May 4. Wait for my other girlfriends' to finish theirs as well. Bittersweet really, to have my exams end on the 13th april. I shall have my fun first with my uni mates. Hah.

6) Clubbing with Pricing girls

7) Ice cream spree at Daily Scoop and Island Creamery all in a day

8) 2nd year anniversary with Jax =D


There, a pretty plain checklist. No scuba diving trips and white water rafting.

More excitement please.


Movies and Songs.

Watched 23 and Charlotte's Web. I know both are like heaven and earth; one is freakish, the other enchanting and lovely.

I do think Jim Carrey is one of the most versatile actor in Hollywood. He can be the rubber face joker and yet there's still this dark aura around his acting for the number 23. It was nothing short of brilliance. There's a stark difference between the American version of freakish shows and the Oriental freakish shows. For the former, they play with your mind, the latter, well let's just say I'm paying to scare myself. Haha, I really can't bring myself to sit through those jap and korean scary movies where they only rely on sound and make up gimmicks to scare the hell out of me. Most probably, I'll sit through 3/4 of the movies with my hands over my eyes.

Charlotte's Web theme song - Ordinary Miracle by Sarah Mclachlan

It’s not that unusual
When everything is beautiful
It’s just another ordinary miracle today
The sky knows when its time to snow
Don’t need to teach a seed to grow

It’s just another ordinary miracle today
Life is like a gift they say
Wrapped up for you everyday
Open up and find a way
To give some of your own

Isn’t it remarkable?

Like every time a rain drop falls
It’s just another ordinary miracle today
Birds and winter have their fling
But always make it home by spring
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

When you wake up everyday
Please don’t throw your dreams away
Hold them close to your heart
Cause we’re all a part
Of the ordinary miracle
Ordinary miracle


It seems so exceptional
That things just work out after all
It’s just another ordinary miracle today
Sun comes up and shines so bright
And disappears again at night
It’s just another ordinary miracle today
It’s just another ordinary miracle today

The lyrics are so meaningful. It sounds even better if you hear it for yourself. Just love Sarah Mclachlan's soothing voice.

Saturday 7 April 2007

This Small Dingy Restaurant at Serangoon Gardens.


If I remember the name correctly, its Pow Sing Restuarant. It's a Chinese restaurant, obviously from the sound of the name. And in my opinion, it serves way better chicken rice and chicken (why I say this will be explained in a few sentences' time) than Boon Tong Kee. I'm serious.


Ok, I hardly have the opportunity to savour chicken rice which has both the power combination of fragrant rice and tender soft meat. Ha, perhaps, I've always been to the wrong chicken rice stalls. It's either the rice is fragrant enough but the meat is not tender or the meat is soft enough but the rice tasted just like normal rice. Hm, I wonder if I'm one of the few with such experiences.

So lo and behold, we, as in my entire family, found Pow Sing. And they have that power combination. And, they have other really tasty dishes as well. It was a great Good Friday lunch we had. So, it was to everyone's surprise that I had 2 big plates of chicken rice coupled with loads of equally good side dishes.

Oh wells, here comes the ferocious appetite again. Symptoms of an impending something. =\

Thursday 5 April 2007

My Extra Portion of Wisdom and Strength...


Comes from God. No doubt.

When my mind is saturated with terms and definitions.
When I can no longer take in another page of notes.
When I need the motivation to finish what I need to finish.
When I feel bad about putting off work to watch 5 back to back episodes of this "silly yet I still watch it" HK drama serial.

Yet, I find peace just sitting quietly and listening to gospel music. Its just surreal to just stop focusing on myself and the situation I am in, and just dwell on His love and goodness.

It reminded me of those days when I mugged like crazy for A levels. Nothing beats listening to gospel while studying. The anxiety and worry just left me and all there is, the surrounding peace Indescribable. Its all coming back... Here and now, 4 years on, and the peace that God will make things work for me, still lingers on.

Whenever I feel this way, I find my extra portion of wisdom and strength from reading Psalms and Isaiah.

Isaiah 40:31
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary.
they will walk and not be faint.

one of my favorite verse.

Matthew 6:25-27
Do not worry.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air, they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

Worrying is just pointless. I shan't worry about safety issues in Shenzhen. Sometimes, I would love not for people to tell me just how dangerous it'll be over there. Don't let me condemn the place even before I go there.

Blessed assurance:
I'll be kept in safety wherever I go=)

Wednesday 4 April 2007

Last Presentation of the Term


2 April 2007


Woooo... My last presentation for Cross-cultural Management and Management of Diversity is over. So relieved. One of my fave mods in all 3 years of SMU education. oh well, its not easy work having to team up with 6 other girls. You know, us girls can get too bitchy and talkative for our own good. So I'm very much surprised we managed to get any work done. Anyways, it was great silly fun working in an all girl team. We rock.

here's the all-girl team...
Li Ming, Sylvia, Sharon & the wacky Ling May

Xin... I'll be spending 3 months with her in Shenzhen. =)


Sweet Sylvia

At Mos Burger, where the main topic during lunch is CHEATING BOYFRIENDS...

Faints.. No, not based on my accounts. Based on their accounts. Urps.

I can tell that Qiu Xin belongs to the feminist category, cause she was equally appalled as me to find out about the extent to which boyfriends can cheat on their girlsfriends. Ok, sensitive issue here, shan't elaborate more. Such a horrid issue to talk about over lunch.

Anyway, halfway thru the discussion, May asked this question which kind of pulled me into the whole ugly issue of cheating boyfriends.,

" Hmm, your boyfriend's from NTU rightttt?.."

Me: yeah, I thought I mentioned to you before right?"

"Since he stays in hall... Aren't you worried he'll go astray?"

Me: -Took me awhile to reply- cause I never thought of that scenario before. Actually, I'm not worried. Should I be?


Well, absolute trust in your other half is THE most important aspect in any relationship. It's really pointless to worry too much about boyfriends straying.
I was pretty much left moodless after lunch. I would prefer to talk about positive, cheery stuff.
Haha, I went back to tell Jax about this, and I said, "If you were to let me find out you cheated on me, I'll skin you alive!"
LOL.... kidding.
Ok, back to revision for exams.
Sometimes, it's best not to ponder and dwell too much on the sad facts of life. Be happy, don't worry!

Monday 2 April 2007

Life is Fragile.


Everyone in school received a piece of deeply saddenly news this morning. A 3rd year Social Science student, Edwina Tan passed away after battling cancer for a year. She is 22. I found her name strangely familiar and decided to check out her photo on the intranet portal. And when I saw her picture, I recognized her immediately. She was in my music: east and west class just last term. In my memory, she was an attractive, bright and cheery girl. And tears just welled up in my eyes just thinking she was in the same class as me, and now she's no longer with us anymore. I mean, how fragile can life get? Here I am, tearing at the demise of a stranger, a fleeting face. And I know her boyfriend personally. She broke up with her boyfriend cause she didn't want him to suffer along with her. It's really heart-rendering.

I really admire her courage and her determination to live her last days of her life fully. I remembered the very last day of our music class. She was there for the concert, in a wheelchair. When I think back, I can't help but tear all over again.

Sometimes, we do really take the things and people around us for granted. Let this be a lesson for me. That life on Earth is too short for regrets, too short to take the people and the lovely things around us for granted.

My heart goes out to Wayne, her family and friends.

May Edwina rest in peace and may her soul dwell forever in Heaven.